Dang I have had a Sassitude today! Mentally I am really struggling. Word on the street is that week 3 is tough for a lot of people, so maybe this is just par for the course or a self-fulfilling prophecy. Either way, it doesn't change the fact that I hit some sort of wall around 6:30am and have given new meaning to the term "wall flower". Recently there has been some "real world" stuff invading my space here. I know I need to stay focused, not worry about the things I can't control, blah blah blah. I am really struggling, and it is pissing me off! REALLY PISSING ME OFF! Normally I would deal with this anger by eating, turning the anger inward and punishing myself. When I can't eat, I get the urge to self-injure. It has been a long time since I have been in that place, and I don't want to drop to the level. I'm trying to "leave it in the gym", but I can't seem to get my head right...focus...and stop the negative self-talk. It feels like I am backsliding which is horrifying! I want to go home a different person, and if I can't deal here how will I ever deal at home?! I need to stop spiralling...I am falling down a rabbit hole. I need help, don't know who to ask, what to ask for, or how to accept it.